Well, I really doubt anyone has missed me, since I really doubt anyone has been reading me. But, I think I'll start up again, and go from there. Maybe I'll get some followers, it really isn't much fun without the give and take of comments.
Things have been interesting since my last post. I got better, than worse and now I'm heading for a hysteroctomy on the 29th. The dr has tried everything she can, and now, I have no choice. Since I can not have anymore children, that issue doesn't really matter. And, I need to be alive for the four I've got now anyway. And it's too that point. My aneima is back, and I am just so worn out.
But (and this is a big BUT), I know it will all turn out just fine. By the end of April I will feel great, and be back to my old self, my old self from about six or seven years ago. My littlest doesn't even know how much mommy can really do. I look forward to long walks again, to playing in the yard with my kids, and just having the engery to do what I used to do. I know God will make sure all that will happen. My health has been pretty bad for a while now, but, as long as I'm in the Lord's hands, I know it will just get better. :)
Other than that, life has continued on. Not much more than the regular things, church on Sunday, Tuesday, Wednesday & some Saturdays. Errands, dr apt (for me) and home. My youngest is in our kid's choir at church, hence the Saturdays, and since the start of the year, I've joined our church's women's Bible study on Tuesday mornings (it wasn't a new year's resoulution, it was a Thanksgiving resoulution. I decided around then that I would start after the new year). I've also got my mom comeing along, AND....AND she has accecpted the Lord!!!! She has changed so much. I'm so happy. Now all that's left is my husband. The Lord will get through that thick shell, in His time.
Guess that's all.
Blessings,
Athena
Friday, March 11, 2011
Thursday, November 11, 2010
one more day
I'm looking forward to next week. I've only got one more day, after today, with doctors and nurses, then I'm doctor free for two whole weeks!!! I think the treatments are working, because I'm getting more energy. Today it's the obgyn for my post op. check up. Then tomorrow my last iron treatment. Which is getting tiresome. But, it's what is best for me, so I face it with a smile. What else can I do? But getting stuck multiple times gets annoying anyway. Yesterday, the port we left in was bad, so they poked me again, and it worked just fine, for about 5 minuets. So they had to poke me again. Then they decided to slow down the rate, and that seemed to work just fine. :)
What a beautiful day out there today. the sun is shining so brightly. I hope it will be another warmer day. But even if it starts to cool down again, as long as the sun is out, it seems warmer.
Just a quick cute story about my youngest daughter. The other day, she was practicing her ballet, and dad told her she was doing a good job, and that "practice makes perfect." She quickly replied (without missing a beat) "no dad, practice make almost perfect, 'cause no one except Jesus is perfect." Truth out of the mouths of babes. She is leaning so much, and understands it all. My older two kids didn't grasp God quite so well, but that was because I didn't. And the church we went to wasn't as welcoming or really about teaching the kids all about Him. Just come in, sit down, stand up, kneel.... bye, bye. None of us really liked going. Funny thing is, dad didn't mind it there, because he didn't have to face the fact that if he didn't accept Jesus, he was in trouble. We all LOVE church. In fact it's hard to get the kids to go home often. They have so much fun with their friends afterwards. And they really love learning about our Savior. At the older church (it's been 10 years since we went) they didn't know anyone, not really. I only knew an adult or two, and we rarely said anything other than good morning.
But my eyes are open now. Now I see the joy there is to have when learning about Christ. How much there is to learn, and how wonderful it is to be around others who believe in Him, and really worship Him.
Blessings - Athena
What a beautiful day out there today. the sun is shining so brightly. I hope it will be another warmer day. But even if it starts to cool down again, as long as the sun is out, it seems warmer.
Just a quick cute story about my youngest daughter. The other day, she was practicing her ballet, and dad told her she was doing a good job, and that "practice makes perfect." She quickly replied (without missing a beat) "no dad, practice make almost perfect, 'cause no one except Jesus is perfect." Truth out of the mouths of babes. She is leaning so much, and understands it all. My older two kids didn't grasp God quite so well, but that was because I didn't. And the church we went to wasn't as welcoming or really about teaching the kids all about Him. Just come in, sit down, stand up, kneel.... bye, bye. None of us really liked going. Funny thing is, dad didn't mind it there, because he didn't have to face the fact that if he didn't accept Jesus, he was in trouble. We all LOVE church. In fact it's hard to get the kids to go home often. They have so much fun with their friends afterwards. And they really love learning about our Savior. At the older church (it's been 10 years since we went) they didn't know anyone, not really. I only knew an adult or two, and we rarely said anything other than good morning.
But my eyes are open now. Now I see the joy there is to have when learning about Christ. How much there is to learn, and how wonderful it is to be around others who believe in Him, and really worship Him.
Blessings - Athena
Monday, November 8, 2010
long time gone
Been away for awhile. Sometimes life runs away from you, and before you know it, too much time has passed. In my case, I have been just sooo... tired that it's been hard to even get on and post.
I did have my surgery two weeks ago. All went well, and everything was benign. She did find a polyp and removed it. Hopefully all goes well from here. I'll know in a few weeks I guess.
My anemia issues aren't quite as good news. My iron levels did not go up more than a point or two, and that is after taking 325 mg of it THREE times a day. So, now I'm receiving iron intravenously. I've got five treatments. Two last week, and three this week. It's not so bad, and I do believe it's working. I'm starting to have more energy and not having so much trouble breathing. If it doesn't work, then we'll look for more unusual reasons for the trouble. But I'm not worried about that right now. The Lord says not to worry about tomorrow, God will take care of it, so I'm not going to. When the time comes, then I probably will, but for now, I am quite content with just thinking about my current treatments.
I have to go to the chemo department for treatments. Boy, does that make me grateful for the health I do have. For the most part, the other patients are rather cheerful. You can tell some are pretty sick, but they have good attitudes about it. The nurses there are so nice, and sweet. But when I look around, I pray for each of them and thank God that I am not in that boat.
Guess that's all for now. Monday's are pretty busy with our co-op classes. And I still get really tired really quickly. So I have to pace myself on everything, just so I can last the whole afternoon. But, boy, am I glad my mom makes dinner on Mondays. Since she is out of work (like so many), I asked her to make dinner that day of the week, and we are both happy with it. She gets to make things, I have dinner ready when we get home, and with how tired I've been it's a HUGE blessing! She likes to cook, but isn't too crazy with cooking ALL the times, it's never been her strong suit.
Blessings - Athena
I did have my surgery two weeks ago. All went well, and everything was benign. She did find a polyp and removed it. Hopefully all goes well from here. I'll know in a few weeks I guess.
My anemia issues aren't quite as good news. My iron levels did not go up more than a point or two, and that is after taking 325 mg of it THREE times a day. So, now I'm receiving iron intravenously. I've got five treatments. Two last week, and three this week. It's not so bad, and I do believe it's working. I'm starting to have more energy and not having so much trouble breathing. If it doesn't work, then we'll look for more unusual reasons for the trouble. But I'm not worried about that right now. The Lord says not to worry about tomorrow, God will take care of it, so I'm not going to. When the time comes, then I probably will, but for now, I am quite content with just thinking about my current treatments.
I have to go to the chemo department for treatments. Boy, does that make me grateful for the health I do have. For the most part, the other patients are rather cheerful. You can tell some are pretty sick, but they have good attitudes about it. The nurses there are so nice, and sweet. But when I look around, I pray for each of them and thank God that I am not in that boat.
Guess that's all for now. Monday's are pretty busy with our co-op classes. And I still get really tired really quickly. So I have to pace myself on everything, just so I can last the whole afternoon. But, boy, am I glad my mom makes dinner on Mondays. Since she is out of work (like so many), I asked her to make dinner that day of the week, and we are both happy with it. She gets to make things, I have dinner ready when we get home, and with how tired I've been it's a HUGE blessing! She likes to cook, but isn't too crazy with cooking ALL the times, it's never been her strong suit.
Blessings - Athena
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
surrounded with Jesus
I had an interesting thought the other day. Before I was truely saved two years ago; I always wondered why people thought that Christ and God had to be a part of EVERYTHING they did. What was wrong with setting Him aside to do most things. Sure it was fine to pray a lot, love Him all the time, but why talk about Him EVEY chance you get. I thought I loved Jesus, I knew all about Him; BUT I didn't KNOW Him. Now, and for the past two years, I DO want to talk about Him every chance I get. I just love having Him in my mind and on my heart ALL of the time. When I do set Him aside, I feel saddened, and unsure of myself. When I realize that I have set Him aside, I pull Him back to the front, and I am joyous and confident again. :)
Now, that's not to say, that we should hound those around us. Often, we as (what I like to call) true Christians, forget that not everyone feels that way. We can overwhelm, and upset those who don't have a personal relationship with Jesus. Our intentions are good, we want to save them, help them, share our love for Him with others. But, if we push too hard, they will grow to be, not only resentful of us, but of God as well.
I know this is what I did to my husband two years ago, when I first became saved. For the longest time he was an athiest, positive that there was no God. He has since become more agnostic, he's simply not sure. But, still leans more twards no God. Something I knew when we married, but we made a deal. We wouldn't talk with the kids about it until they were old enough to understand the difference. And, at the time, I really didn't think it was a big deal. I also thought he would change his mind by now. SO, when I truely became saved, I wanted so bad to share with him this new love. This new wonderful feeling I had, and I knew he needed the Lord in his life, so I tried to shove Him down his throght. BIG, BIG mistake. I am still dealing with the consiquences of that one.
I can talk with him about Jesus from time to time. But most often, he really doesn't want to talk about Him. I am pretty sure that he is still resentful of all that pressure, and now, when I do say things like; "Praise God!" or "It's all in His hands" - just when ever the mood strikes, he looks at me kinda funny. I feel like he's thinking - what next. Just like I used to think.
So, if you are truely saved, and you have someone you REALLY want to get through to, be careful of how you do it. Each person is different. Try to find the "sweet" spot; that place where it's not too much or too little. Keep praying and trusting that God will show you the way.
Blessings - Athena
Now, that's not to say, that we should hound those around us. Often, we as (what I like to call) true Christians, forget that not everyone feels that way. We can overwhelm, and upset those who don't have a personal relationship with Jesus. Our intentions are good, we want to save them, help them, share our love for Him with others. But, if we push too hard, they will grow to be, not only resentful of us, but of God as well.
I know this is what I did to my husband two years ago, when I first became saved. For the longest time he was an athiest, positive that there was no God. He has since become more agnostic, he's simply not sure. But, still leans more twards no God. Something I knew when we married, but we made a deal. We wouldn't talk with the kids about it until they were old enough to understand the difference. And, at the time, I really didn't think it was a big deal. I also thought he would change his mind by now. SO, when I truely became saved, I wanted so bad to share with him this new love. This new wonderful feeling I had, and I knew he needed the Lord in his life, so I tried to shove Him down his throght. BIG, BIG mistake. I am still dealing with the consiquences of that one.
I can talk with him about Jesus from time to time. But most often, he really doesn't want to talk about Him. I am pretty sure that he is still resentful of all that pressure, and now, when I do say things like; "Praise God!" or "It's all in His hands" - just when ever the mood strikes, he looks at me kinda funny. I feel like he's thinking - what next. Just like I used to think.
So, if you are truely saved, and you have someone you REALLY want to get through to, be careful of how you do it. Each person is different. Try to find the "sweet" spot; that place where it's not too much or too little. Keep praying and trusting that God will show you the way.
Blessings - Athena
Friday, October 15, 2010
still VERY BUSY
WOW! Have we been busy. There is just no time to sit and post things. But, since I can't sleep, I thought that I would post my Quick Takes Friday. (after I checked and deleted A LOT of e-mail)
7 Quick Takes #3
1. Our school room is almost done. I'm very excited, and so are the kids. It's really starting to look like a homeschool school room. (I'll try to post photos when it's all done) There is just a little left to sort through and my husband needs to get my younger son's desk from my grandmother's (it was my grandfather's, so I'm really glad to get it, and she is really glad I want it :) Then it's just putting up posters, organizing the school books and painting one wall with chalkboard paint!
2. I have maneged to get rid of a lot of things. I feel pretty good about it. And, for a pack rat, that's a great thing. It means I'll let more go. I just gave away a set of twin bed frames to someone who REALLY needed it. They had a mattress on the floor. And just wanted something to get it up off the floor. So, off it went, yesterday. I had been given it for free from a friend, and so I passed it on for free.
3. The same person who came to pick up the beds, is a homeschooler, a member of my support group. I believe we have met once at a meeting, she doesn't make too many. But in meeting her (again) and discussing things with her (what is it about homeschooling moms, we can talk and talk with another adult for ever? :) I see that she is going to be a good friend, and has given me a lot to think about, as far a God is concerned,and the Bible.
4. The rest of the house is moving along. A lot slower than I had wanted to. But I have been working more on the school room, because we all want that done, so we can get back to a nice routine with school and have a nice place to learn together. I just wish I had more energy to get it all done much quicker. But, that's just the way it needs to be right now. And I am trusting God to keep me on the path He's laid out for me.
5. My health, well, not much to say. Not really improving. But not too much worse. I do have plenty of doctor's apt. coming up. And surgery on the 26th. I'm praying pretty hard, that they find an answer and can "fix" it all. So I can have the energy I should have at 35. However, I know, that no matter what, I am in God's hands, and He will take care of me.
6. My youngest started ballet last Saturday. AND just LOVED it! She has been waiting for it for a while. She played soccer last year, and even though she was the oldest on the team, she was the slowest. She's just not a very "sporty" kind of kid. However, ballet, seems to be just the thing. Oh, she had fun with soccer, and didn't care too much that she couldn't keep up as well, she had a great coach, and even got a goal or two. But was more interested in ballet. And since my husband will get a nice overtime check in the next month or two, we decided to just go ahead and get her lessons. The dance studio is exactly what I was looking for. It's an older studio, they do not have competition dace, and the teacher is wonderful with the kids. There are 8 other little girls in the class. It's a good size and it's a 55 min class, for the same price as some want for half an hour. So, it's all good.
7. I think that over all it's been a good week. Even though I hurt my back two weeks ago, and it's still tricky, even though I hit my head again this week (twice!!!) and the last one really hurts. I've got all this health stuff going on. The house's a mess, the laundry is WAY behind. And school is on hold. It's still been a great week. I know God is working in me, and through me. And as long as that is going on, it's a good week.
Blessings - Athena
Be sure to check out others at
www.ConversionDiary.com
7 Quick Takes #3
1. Our school room is almost done. I'm very excited, and so are the kids. It's really starting to look like a homeschool school room. (I'll try to post photos when it's all done) There is just a little left to sort through and my husband needs to get my younger son's desk from my grandmother's (it was my grandfather's, so I'm really glad to get it, and she is really glad I want it :) Then it's just putting up posters, organizing the school books and painting one wall with chalkboard paint!
2. I have maneged to get rid of a lot of things. I feel pretty good about it. And, for a pack rat, that's a great thing. It means I'll let more go. I just gave away a set of twin bed frames to someone who REALLY needed it. They had a mattress on the floor. And just wanted something to get it up off the floor. So, off it went, yesterday. I had been given it for free from a friend, and so I passed it on for free.
3. The same person who came to pick up the beds, is a homeschooler, a member of my support group. I believe we have met once at a meeting, she doesn't make too many. But in meeting her (again) and discussing things with her (what is it about homeschooling moms, we can talk and talk with another adult for ever? :) I see that she is going to be a good friend, and has given me a lot to think about, as far a God is concerned,and the Bible.
4. The rest of the house is moving along. A lot slower than I had wanted to. But I have been working more on the school room, because we all want that done, so we can get back to a nice routine with school and have a nice place to learn together. I just wish I had more energy to get it all done much quicker. But, that's just the way it needs to be right now. And I am trusting God to keep me on the path He's laid out for me.
5. My health, well, not much to say. Not really improving. But not too much worse. I do have plenty of doctor's apt. coming up. And surgery on the 26th. I'm praying pretty hard, that they find an answer and can "fix" it all. So I can have the energy I should have at 35. However, I know, that no matter what, I am in God's hands, and He will take care of me.
6. My youngest started ballet last Saturday. AND just LOVED it! She has been waiting for it for a while. She played soccer last year, and even though she was the oldest on the team, she was the slowest. She's just not a very "sporty" kind of kid. However, ballet, seems to be just the thing. Oh, she had fun with soccer, and didn't care too much that she couldn't keep up as well, she had a great coach, and even got a goal or two. But was more interested in ballet. And since my husband will get a nice overtime check in the next month or two, we decided to just go ahead and get her lessons. The dance studio is exactly what I was looking for. It's an older studio, they do not have competition dace, and the teacher is wonderful with the kids. There are 8 other little girls in the class. It's a good size and it's a 55 min class, for the same price as some want for half an hour. So, it's all good.
7. I think that over all it's been a good week. Even though I hurt my back two weeks ago, and it's still tricky, even though I hit my head again this week (twice!!!) and the last one really hurts. I've got all this health stuff going on. The house's a mess, the laundry is WAY behind. And school is on hold. It's still been a great week. I know God is working in me, and through me. And as long as that is going on, it's a good week.
Blessings - Athena
Be sure to check out others at
www.ConversionDiary.com
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Busy, busy, busy...
It's been really busy around here. Lots of work getting done. Not quite as fast as I wish it would, but neverless, it's getting done.
I hurt my back over the weekend, so that put us behind, I'm mostly fine now. As far as my female problems, they want to do a dnc (there are no more babies for me anyway, so this is not a concern) and the hemotologist wants me to take LOTS of iron for about a month, and if that isn't it, we move on to intravious iron. Yuck!
I really wonder if anyone is reading this. If you are, post a comment that you are. I am just curious. I do enjoy writing this, even if no one reads it. :)
I haven't posted my new goals for this week. I've been just way to busy. So, I think I'll wait until next week to post more.
In the mean time, I am trying to find time to just sit and be with God. I know I need to put Him first, but I have so much trouble finding the time. I need some wake up time, before my brain functions in the morning, and then the kids are up and we need to start our day. Bed time I usually have a headach and can not read anything. (which drives me mad actully, since I used to be able to read then). I think I will try right after lunch. I've been needing naps with all this medical stuff going on, but I think that it just might work.
I guess that's all for now. I have a lot to do, and a lot to say, but the "to do" has to get done. Then I might have time to do more here.
Blessings - Athena
I hurt my back over the weekend, so that put us behind, I'm mostly fine now. As far as my female problems, they want to do a dnc (there are no more babies for me anyway, so this is not a concern) and the hemotologist wants me to take LOTS of iron for about a month, and if that isn't it, we move on to intravious iron. Yuck!
I really wonder if anyone is reading this. If you are, post a comment that you are. I am just curious. I do enjoy writing this, even if no one reads it. :)
I haven't posted my new goals for this week. I've been just way to busy. So, I think I'll wait until next week to post more.
In the mean time, I am trying to find time to just sit and be with God. I know I need to put Him first, but I have so much trouble finding the time. I need some wake up time, before my brain functions in the morning, and then the kids are up and we need to start our day. Bed time I usually have a headach and can not read anything. (which drives me mad actully, since I used to be able to read then). I think I will try right after lunch. I've been needing naps with all this medical stuff going on, but I think that it just might work.
I guess that's all for now. I have a lot to do, and a lot to say, but the "to do" has to get done. Then I might have time to do more here.
Blessings - Athena
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
late night
Boy, it sure is strange posting at night. I think I prefer to get up early, and do it then. But things have been pretty messed up lately. HOWEVER, we have been making a lot of progress. The kids all now have their own rooms. My older son and I ended up moving his bed, since he didn't want to wait on dad, and I was feeling good that day. :)
My older son (15) has his almost completely set up. He still has some posters and such in his (now) little brother's room. And we still need to get a few more things to organize odds-n-ends. But that's about it. It's pretty small, but he really loves it.
My older daughter (17) still has a LOT of junk to go through. She's a bit messier than the others, and just has a LOT of junk to organize. But, as she's 17, she's on her own. As long as she gets it done, and her floor is clear and not a "broken-leg" hazard, I'll be happy.
My younger daughter (6) room is more than 75% done. She has all the furniture in it that will be in it. A nice BIG coffee table (I picked it up at goodwill for around 5 to 10 dollars, and have been waiting to put it in there for a while now), a bright yellow shelf for toys (yellow is her favorite color), a cloth-front facing book shelf, and her Disney princess toy tote shelf thing. :) She LOVES spending time in there now. And she is keeping it clean, all on her own.
My younger son (9) is over 50% done. He's got his bookshelf, and the floor is cleaned up now. I'm going to have to find a table for him (he wants one too) and we'll be moving in some stacking bins with top and one side open for toys, and some under the bed storage too.
It's all starting to look good. I've been taking some photos. I forgot to take pictures of the kids' rooms BEFORE the two older moved out. But we have some around. I'm too tired to post them right now, but I'll get them all together once we are all done, and put as many "befores" as I can, and the afters will be there for sure.
Blessings - Athena
My older son (15) has his almost completely set up. He still has some posters and such in his (now) little brother's room. And we still need to get a few more things to organize odds-n-ends. But that's about it. It's pretty small, but he really loves it.
My older daughter (17) still has a LOT of junk to go through. She's a bit messier than the others, and just has a LOT of junk to organize. But, as she's 17, she's on her own. As long as she gets it done, and her floor is clear and not a "broken-leg" hazard, I'll be happy.
My younger daughter (6) room is more than 75% done. She has all the furniture in it that will be in it. A nice BIG coffee table (I picked it up at goodwill for around 5 to 10 dollars, and have been waiting to put it in there for a while now), a bright yellow shelf for toys (yellow is her favorite color), a cloth-front facing book shelf, and her Disney princess toy tote shelf thing. :) She LOVES spending time in there now. And she is keeping it clean, all on her own.
My younger son (9) is over 50% done. He's got his bookshelf, and the floor is cleaned up now. I'm going to have to find a table for him (he wants one too) and we'll be moving in some stacking bins with top and one side open for toys, and some under the bed storage too.
It's all starting to look good. I've been taking some photos. I forgot to take pictures of the kids' rooms BEFORE the two older moved out. But we have some around. I'm too tired to post them right now, but I'll get them all together once we are all done, and put as many "befores" as I can, and the afters will be there for sure.
Blessings - Athena
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